Thread:Unity29/@comment-5670835-20150928174041/@comment-30185470-20150930012837

Klaus, let me be honest with you: Even I spoke honestly, you'd swear at me and say I'm a liar, so what's the point in trying? I'm not saying I'm quitting, but I'm saying you have the advantage here. I could as honest as I want while you easily have the simple choice to call me a liar when you don't know what goes through my head. I could honestly go to any wiki I want, but knowing your history, you'd end up finding me anywhere, making my wiki experience a tragedy. I mean, how am I supposed to give you another chance after seeing your history? If newcomers saw it, they'd have the same thought as me: You don't need anymore chances because you won't learn. However, why does my opinion matter? No one has acknowledged my thoughts or showed that they could be the solution to a problem. No one really cares what I think. All they want from me is to "work, work, work"; working for labor. All I wanted was to be recognized and perhaps have a thought of mine be seen by anyone, but I guess you can only have that in reality while on the internet, you have to be a leader of something big in order to have your thoughts be heard. My point is: why should my opinion matter to you? Based on your history, you admitted to being a liar. Through all those times you promised to leave, you didn't, and why? Well, since I'm not the leader, you're liable enough to not take me seriously since I'm not the one running the business, none of my thoughts matter, only Night's matter. That's what it feels like. Even if you actually be truthful this time, what's to stop you from talking to Night on another wiki countless months later and having him unblock you? I mean, if that were to happen, you'd have complete advantage because I'd be seen as the bad guy and be accused of causing trouble if many months of peace were to exist. I'd practically be the enemy if that were to happen. If you really are making a promise here, then that would mean you are to have no contact with Night on any wiki alive because if that happens, it would be seen as an act of secrecy that could be used in the wrong path, which could hurt me or even other people. This also means you can't be using any sock because it proves the point that you can't be patient and wait for punishments to be over. Why is it so hard for me to forgive you? Two reasons... One, you've been given so many chances and based on your decision, I feel it's green-lit that you are to be given no more chances. The other reason is the fact that you aren't willing to apologize for everything you did. Based on common sense and seeing so many TV shows and real life experiences, it's a known fact that the first thing a bad person is supposed to do if they are to be forgiven is that they apologize to all the people they did wrong to as a way of saying their sorry. As a bonus, the bad person is supposed to go above and beyond in terms of change, which means they're supposed to do whatever it takes to be forgiven, even if it means making acts of sacrifices that they may not like. The fact they be doing it to be forgiven by a group of people or one person than doing it for themselves shows change and care. Now, you were asking basically how will I regain what I lost in the first place. Well, if you're not going to call me a liar, then please let me be honest with you on this: I have no idea because since I'm currently living life as a junior in high school and other outside activites to commit to, it's very hard for me to balance, so I kind of have to focus on school life first before the internet, so to be blunt, I don't know as of right now since I need to focus on school. As well, I recently discovered that being open-minded is better than having a final decision, which means in many situations, I am to discover and have multiple solutions to a problem instead of having or relying on one answer. So again, you ask me how will I regain what was lost from a problem I didn't start. Right now, I'm not sure, but I guarantee I'll find the answer one day, or maybe the answer will be alive with me the whole time and slowly be spreaded, causing things to be normal once more. No one knows what the future beholds, but that's not a bad thing because the future creates the "unknown", which creates mystery, which makes humans want to discover, which is just like the meaning of life: the search, or in this case, moving and discovering new things, gives us meaning. So ultimately, I'd like to say I don't know how to replace what I've lost, but I'll use myself and the future to give me the answer I need, which could take from seconds to days to even months.